I got a message on Facebook this morning from a cousin of mine:
Hey girl. I was hoping I could ask you some questions. What made you decide in adoption and do you regret it? I'm really confused right now
My response:
Hey. I decided on adoption because it was the best option for Jacob. I wasn't married or in school, I didn't have a job and I was still living with my parents, plus I had issues with the father. It was a serious decision that took months to make, but when I decided I hooked up with an awesome agency in Houston. Our adoption is very open, I see Jacob once a week, if not more. But that’s a rare case; most open adoptions have visits every six months. I don’t regret it now but I had years where I thought if only I would have tried harder I could have been a good mom, but now I’m glad I did what I did. Jacob's parents are the best thing for him and they will be able to give him opportunities and the kind of love that even now I wouldn’t be able to offer him.
So, I decided on adoption because it was the best thing to do for my baby. And no I don’t regret it.
Keep in mind that adoption is a hard thing. Very hard, and if you believe in your heart of hearts that you cannot raise your child responsibly, then I would recommend adoption. But you have to be sure that you’re sure that you’re sure.
Adoption is not an easy out; you still have a responsibility to be the best birth mom in the world. You can call me anytime 832-385-0623. I work in an area with no cell reception, but call me after 5:00 and I’ll answer.
Boy, I hope I said the right thing.
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Thursday, September 22
Tuesday, January 25
Dolls, Sleep and a Broken Streak
I am literally having to pull myself up by the hair and taping my hands to the keyboard to get this written. I hope you can appreciate the effort I’m making.
For the last four days all I’ve thought or dreamt about are dolls, it’s getting a little out of hand. I didn’t do laundry or dishes all weekend. Not one load in either machine. Laine only got one bath all weekend and that was on Sunday night and it was only because we were at my mom’s house and it was embarrassing how much she needed it. I know I’m a horrible mother; Laine could have contracted some insane disease from the bacteria and dirt. Whatever. She’s fine. And clean now. Plus she’s a toddler; there is a Clorox like excretion on her skin, like whatever touches her, she kills before it can hurt her. Unless it’s a cold germ, then she’s helpless. But like I said, now she’s clean and I have my ideas finally situated. I’m glad I took the time for myself. It would have been awesome if I’d had someone to help out and take care of the house and baby for me while I was taking this time for myself, I’m thinking that maybe I’ll start dating again, boyfriends are so much more helpful than husbands. It’s worth bringing up to Erik, maybe over dinner tonight. If I cook for him; I may be making a doll.
So far I’ve been working from a pattern that was someone else’s, it’s not copyrighted that I know of but on the off chance that it is and on the off chance I decide to sell one or two I don’t want any problems. And I’m pretty sure I have it all worked out now, at least I have the idea worked out. Now I need to figure out how to take that idea and form a pattern out of it. Once that’s done its cheesy peasy fresh and easy. I have some amazing fabric that I picked up on Saturday and some super cute little buttons and beads too. I’m ready to do this thing; I just need the thing to get done so I can do it. You know?
So Friday. Friday I got off work around 3:00 and headed over to my persons house, where she was napping and I totally made the dogs bark and wake her up and then I felt bad and offered to leave but she was already up so I hung out for a little bit, the girls woke up from their nap soon after and it was a nice visit. I went home to piece together a doll I had been thinking about before going to go and get Laine from daycare around 6:00 and she and I headed into Friendswood to watch Josh play basketball. He’s so much better at it that Jacob was at his age, he gets on his man and stays there and totally took the shot when he had it, three year olds are amazing. Especially the ones related to me, because they all get their amazing gene from me. If you know my family and are questioning this, you can just shut your pie hole. You don’t have to understand it for it to be true. Science schmience.
When we were leaving the game Laine FAAAHH-lipped out. To the max. Apparently my mom pinched her right as I was putting Laine into the car seat, but Laine thought that I did it so she got all hateful towards me and started crying for Nanny. It’s the only explanation there is; if you were there you’d know.
Laine cried for a while in the car then started doing that sniffing thing, like she’s been crying for hours and her body doesn’t know it’s done and so it keeps faking the motions but there are no more tears. Ugh I hate that. It breaks the heart even worse than the crying, she even did it after she fell asleep. Then when I got home I walked in the door with her passed out but then April came barreling around the corner and clipped the back of my knee and I jostled Laine awake. She stayed up for another couple of hours before finally passing out for good. I can’t remember if she woke up or not, if she did I’m sure she went back down easily enough. I stayed up until a little after midnight sewing my doll and got everything but the stuffing done. So when I woke up the next morning I stuffed and stitched it up and took it with me to show mom at Jacob’s basketball game.
Erik had said that he’s got way too much to do around the house to go to a basketball game, so Laine and I tried waking him up when we got up around 6:00 but that was dumb, and it didn’t work. We tried again at 7 and 8 and finally I got testy and at 8:45 I told him if he’s too busy to go to a basket ball game I’d assume he’s too busy to sleep the day away. I snapped at him and stomped around the bedroom, turning on lights and yanking the covers off him because yeah, he decided he didn’t feel like going to my son’s basketball game, I DON’T CARE IF YOU DON’T LIKE IT, YOU GO. Like you go to work and Sunday school. Then I got all involved with being pissed off that I didn’t realize how late I was running to the game myself. I got there a little late but beat Momma and Daddy. When I texted to find out where they were Mom used the “We’re old and move slow” card that I am pretty sure she’s never pulled out before. She was probably doing something with dad that she didn’t want to share because she knew I’d share it on here so she said she was just moving slow. Joke’s on her though, because whether they did or not you are all totally thinking they were “dancing the mattress jig” now aren’t you. Ha. They probably were. Rabbits.
After the game I headed to the house. I was going to just get my doll pattern and head to mom’s house so that together we could work out the idea for the shape of the body but Laine fell asleep in the car so when we got to the house we just stayed there and I let her nap. When we were at the basketball game Josh had asked me to make him a boy doll and since I have no idea where to start on that I made him a little monster instead that turned out really cute. I finished it up right as Laine was waking up from her nap and at the same time Erik walked out of the bedroom freshly showered and ready to go to Nicolette’s birthday party, and tried to tell me all he’d done around the house which was a whole load of nothing. It was all garage stuff that I’d never be able to know for sure if he did it that day or months ago. I’m pretty sure he watched TV the whole time. And even though I took an entire weekend to sew I can still be a horribly bitter person about him taking time to do his own thing, because at least I didn’t lie. I have no proof he lied and I’d probably never say it to his face, but still. Liar.
We headed over to my persons to celebrate Nic’s first birthday, and it was such a great party. Exactly what I want for Laine’s, family only and as soon as everyone is assembled its gifts and cake and thank you for coming now get out. Ah, that would be so nice. Thirty minutes and you’re down to just the people you really want to be there. Or you’re down to the people that think you really want them to be there. Those folks are generally the ones you do want around and if you don’t it’s really your own fault for faking it and making them think that. Yeah, we stayed.
Laine got to hit a piñata kind of by herself for the first time and when the candy came out she jumped on it like a rabid dog, she stuffed every single lollypop she could find into her bag, I think she may have even stolen some out of the other kids bags. They all got left behind because we don’t do candy at the house ever, but for a short time they were "MINE!” I’m pretty sure it’s about as epic a moment as she’s ever had.
We gave Nicolette the Colette doll. She seemed to like it, whether she really does or not though I guess is fine, it matched her room anyway, so that’s lucky. I’d like to make her an owl soon too, that would match her room even better, I found a owl mobile pattern that was flipping amazing, and I know she’s a little old for a mobile so it could be a ridiculous thing to do but I never really claimed to be in my right mind.
We left the party and headed home around 4:00 I guess, my allergies were nowhere near as bad as they could have been but still I needed to take a few minutes to breath deep once I was home. I took some Sudafed and made a cup of Theraflu and was finally able to stop sniffling. I really hate that I’m so sensitive to other people’s pets; it’s inconvenient and makes me feel like I’m insulting that person or their house and that makes me feel horrible.
Saturday night Erik had to drive out to James’ house to pick up a used faucet that Erik wanted to use for our kitchen sink and while he was gone Laine and I started climbing the walls with boredom so I took her with me out to JoAnn and she was a big help picking out the felt and buttons. She was a not so big help when it came to no chewing on the buttons but I take what I can get with her. Since it was too early for Laine to fall asleep in the car I stopped halfway home when I started seeing her doze. I pulled into the Kroger at 528 and Bay Area and decided we needed toothpaste anyway so we walked around Kroger for an hour. Have you been in that Kroger? It’s huge. We were there for an hour and I didn’t even get to see the Organic section. That part was waaaaay over on the other side and I got side tracked by the Pepper Wall and the four choices of Brussels sprouts. Amazing. Laine was totally into the miniature cart she was able to push around the store, not really functional if you’re doing any real shopping but for one or two things it was a ton of fun. But even the most funnest things in the world get old and boring given enough time and a toddler’s attention span so we finally got on the road close to 7:30 and she passed out again in the car but this time stayed out all night. Until 2:00. That’s her witching hour apparently, when the scary things come out and she has to be awake for an hour before going back to sleep. It’s become a regular thing, something I can’t even complain about anymore because it’s become my life. My regular routine is to wake up at 2 and stay up till 3 then sleep again until 5:30. No complaining because there is no changing it. Unless of course I get that boyfriend.
Sunday morning came at 5:30. Surprise! Laine let us stay in bed until 7:00 but then she started getting rowdy at which point I popped Erik on the head and told him it was his turn to get up early. And to his credit he got up right away, no complaints or arguments. He went downstairs and forgot the baby, but he did come right back up to get her. No, I didn’t get any rest in the extra hour I was in bed, I was terrified he’d forget about her again and I just knew at any second she was going to scream out because he’d stepped on her or something. But she didn’t. Still I didn’t sleep. I did however stay in bed then whole time, it was an exercise in restraint but I made it through, I even took a shower by myself. That’s a really big deal. I went downstairs to find Laine and Erik still in pajamas with fifteen minutes to get out the door. I should have known better but I didn’t fuss, I’m getting used to it I guess. Laine and I were dressed and headed for the door while Erik was still searching the house for a pair of pants. Genius should have looked in the closet but I didn’t say anything.
At church I found it difficult to hold my head up much less keep my eyes open, the only part that grabbed and held my attention both services was Russell’s singing. If he made a CD I’d buy it. I miss the Willingham’s doing worship, but mom said I may see more of them soon, so I’ll just keep my fingers crossed for that.
I worked in the nursery for second service and by 11:30 I was nodding off in the rocking chair with the girl baby so I had to have Erik come in and play with the boy baby. Me and the girl snuggled down and got our rock on for the last half hour and by the end of church I was finally getting my energy back up. It didn’t last long though, once I was in the car I fell asleep. Erik decided to drop me off at home and take Laine out to lunch with my folks. AMAZING IDEA! The best idea he’s probably ever had. I did sleep then, for a whole three hours I slept and I didn’t even move. My leg was still half off the bed when Laine came tearing into my room to wake me up at 3:30. She’d taken her nap on Erik’s shoulder while he was shopping at Lowes. He said he had a basket in one hand and Laine in the other, and he didn’t set her into a cart because he wanted her to sleep and that by the end of the trip his arm was dead. I let him boo-hoo about it because I’d just had a nap, but after complaining about it for fifteen minutes I told him “yes, dear, I know it was probably very difficult, I’m sorry about that but I’m so happy that you let her sleep. It was a very good daddy move” but my tone said “Shut the eff up dear, I love you but I’ll punch you in the no-go hole if you say another word about how hard you had it for the last three hours” He caught the gist of it though I think because he dropped it.
Once I was fully awake and we were all enjoying eachother's company watchign TV Erik said he wanted to do a few things around the house but throughout the day Laine had become attached to him and wasn’t letting him work (GOD! I WONDER WHAT THAT’S LIKE?!) So to pay him back for taking care of me I took Laine over to my mom’s where I was finally able to get her input on the doll, we didn’t get to talk about it too much but we did get to hang out. Daddy was busy with bills and taxes so Mom and I got to hang out just the two of us and watch a movie. At one point Laine left us to find my Dad, she ended up falling asleep on him so it was really REALLY just me and mom for almost an hour. That never happens and it was GREAT.
Around 8:00 I bundled up Laine and took her home, she woke up and went back down about three times Sunday night but each time was shorter than the last so I was still mostly rested on Monday.
Work was fine, I had a couple of things to do and was glad to have it to do, and I am still waiting on that big job to come in. Just waiting… At 5:00 I left and got Laine, she and I got home and made meatloaf and waited for Daddy to get home. He got there starved and impatient for dinner, and even ate seconds when it was done. It’s been a long time since he’s asked for seconds, made me feel like maybe this loaf was a better loaf than the last loaf i made, even though I know it wasn’t. I told Laine “He likes the meatloaf; that means he likes me.” And Erik looked at me like that’s not at all what that means, and I got all hurt and he tried telling me that he likes me with or without the meatloaf and I was all “so you don’t like the meatloaf?”and he said that no, really it wasn’t his favorite but it was okay, and I was all oh, it’s okay well let me just go set it on fire because we can’t have okay food here, it’s got to be perfect then Erik said something about insane and committed and too expensive, I don’t know, whatever. But he did have seconds.
We watched TV for a while before bed adn I saw this commercial for Dexatrim Max and it says you can lose weight three times faster. Three times faster.... THREE TIMES FASTER THAN WHAT?! I'll never in my life get over how incomplete that comercial left me.
Today, I broke my streak. I had gone nine days without calling Erik. I had to call him this morning though because I’d forgotten the last two days to take diapers to the daycare and I needed him to drop it off for me. He picked up on the second ring. TWILIGHT ZONE!! I almost forgot what I was calling him about.
Tonight we are eating leftovers and I’m going to finally figure out my pattern, hopefully. That’s the plan anyway.
For the last four days all I’ve thought or dreamt about are dolls, it’s getting a little out of hand. I didn’t do laundry or dishes all weekend. Not one load in either machine. Laine only got one bath all weekend and that was on Sunday night and it was only because we were at my mom’s house and it was embarrassing how much she needed it. I know I’m a horrible mother; Laine could have contracted some insane disease from the bacteria and dirt. Whatever. She’s fine. And clean now. Plus she’s a toddler; there is a Clorox like excretion on her skin, like whatever touches her, she kills before it can hurt her. Unless it’s a cold germ, then she’s helpless. But like I said, now she’s clean and I have my ideas finally situated. I’m glad I took the time for myself. It would have been awesome if I’d had someone to help out and take care of the house and baby for me while I was taking this time for myself, I’m thinking that maybe I’ll start dating again, boyfriends are so much more helpful than husbands. It’s worth bringing up to Erik, maybe over dinner tonight. If I cook for him; I may be making a doll.
So far I’ve been working from a pattern that was someone else’s, it’s not copyrighted that I know of but on the off chance that it is and on the off chance I decide to sell one or two I don’t want any problems. And I’m pretty sure I have it all worked out now, at least I have the idea worked out. Now I need to figure out how to take that idea and form a pattern out of it. Once that’s done its cheesy peasy fresh and easy. I have some amazing fabric that I picked up on Saturday and some super cute little buttons and beads too. I’m ready to do this thing; I just need the thing to get done so I can do it. You know?
So Friday. Friday I got off work around 3:00 and headed over to my persons house, where she was napping and I totally made the dogs bark and wake her up and then I felt bad and offered to leave but she was already up so I hung out for a little bit, the girls woke up from their nap soon after and it was a nice visit. I went home to piece together a doll I had been thinking about before going to go and get Laine from daycare around 6:00 and she and I headed into Friendswood to watch Josh play basketball. He’s so much better at it that Jacob was at his age, he gets on his man and stays there and totally took the shot when he had it, three year olds are amazing. Especially the ones related to me, because they all get their amazing gene from me. If you know my family and are questioning this, you can just shut your pie hole. You don’t have to understand it for it to be true. Science schmience.
When we were leaving the game Laine FAAAHH-lipped out. To the max. Apparently my mom pinched her right as I was putting Laine into the car seat, but Laine thought that I did it so she got all hateful towards me and started crying for Nanny. It’s the only explanation there is; if you were there you’d know.
Laine cried for a while in the car then started doing that sniffing thing, like she’s been crying for hours and her body doesn’t know it’s done and so it keeps faking the motions but there are no more tears. Ugh I hate that. It breaks the heart even worse than the crying, she even did it after she fell asleep. Then when I got home I walked in the door with her passed out but then April came barreling around the corner and clipped the back of my knee and I jostled Laine awake. She stayed up for another couple of hours before finally passing out for good. I can’t remember if she woke up or not, if she did I’m sure she went back down easily enough. I stayed up until a little after midnight sewing my doll and got everything but the stuffing done. So when I woke up the next morning I stuffed and stitched it up and took it with me to show mom at Jacob’s basketball game.
Erik had said that he’s got way too much to do around the house to go to a basketball game, so Laine and I tried waking him up when we got up around 6:00 but that was dumb, and it didn’t work. We tried again at 7 and 8 and finally I got testy and at 8:45 I told him if he’s too busy to go to a basket ball game I’d assume he’s too busy to sleep the day away. I snapped at him and stomped around the bedroom, turning on lights and yanking the covers off him because yeah, he decided he didn’t feel like going to my son’s basketball game, I DON’T CARE IF YOU DON’T LIKE IT, YOU GO. Like you go to work and Sunday school. Then I got all involved with being pissed off that I didn’t realize how late I was running to the game myself. I got there a little late but beat Momma and Daddy. When I texted to find out where they were Mom used the “We’re old and move slow” card that I am pretty sure she’s never pulled out before. She was probably doing something with dad that she didn’t want to share because she knew I’d share it on here so she said she was just moving slow. Joke’s on her though, because whether they did or not you are all totally thinking they were “dancing the mattress jig” now aren’t you. Ha. They probably were. Rabbits.
We headed over to my persons to celebrate Nic’s first birthday, and it was such a great party. Exactly what I want for Laine’s, family only and as soon as everyone is assembled its gifts and cake and thank you for coming now get out. Ah, that would be so nice. Thirty minutes and you’re down to just the people you really want to be there. Or you’re down to the people that think you really want them to be there. Those folks are generally the ones you do want around and if you don’t it’s really your own fault for faking it and making them think that. Yeah, we stayed.
Laine got to hit a piñata kind of by herself for the first time and when the candy came out she jumped on it like a rabid dog, she stuffed every single lollypop she could find into her bag, I think she may have even stolen some out of the other kids bags. They all got left behind because we don’t do candy at the house ever, but for a short time they were "MINE!” I’m pretty sure it’s about as epic a moment as she’s ever had.
We gave Nicolette the Colette doll. She seemed to like it, whether she really does or not though I guess is fine, it matched her room anyway, so that’s lucky. I’d like to make her an owl soon too, that would match her room even better, I found a owl mobile pattern that was flipping amazing, and I know she’s a little old for a mobile so it could be a ridiculous thing to do but I never really claimed to be in my right mind.
We left the party and headed home around 4:00 I guess, my allergies were nowhere near as bad as they could have been but still I needed to take a few minutes to breath deep once I was home. I took some Sudafed and made a cup of Theraflu and was finally able to stop sniffling. I really hate that I’m so sensitive to other people’s pets; it’s inconvenient and makes me feel like I’m insulting that person or their house and that makes me feel horrible.
Saturday night Erik had to drive out to James’ house to pick up a used faucet that Erik wanted to use for our kitchen sink and while he was gone Laine and I started climbing the walls with boredom so I took her with me out to JoAnn and she was a big help picking out the felt and buttons. She was a not so big help when it came to no chewing on the buttons but I take what I can get with her. Since it was too early for Laine to fall asleep in the car I stopped halfway home when I started seeing her doze. I pulled into the Kroger at 528 and Bay Area and decided we needed toothpaste anyway so we walked around Kroger for an hour. Have you been in that Kroger? It’s huge. We were there for an hour and I didn’t even get to see the Organic section. That part was waaaaay over on the other side and I got side tracked by the Pepper Wall and the four choices of Brussels sprouts. Amazing. Laine was totally into the miniature cart she was able to push around the store, not really functional if you’re doing any real shopping but for one or two things it was a ton of fun. But even the most funnest things in the world get old and boring given enough time and a toddler’s attention span so we finally got on the road close to 7:30 and she passed out again in the car but this time stayed out all night. Until 2:00. That’s her witching hour apparently, when the scary things come out and she has to be awake for an hour before going back to sleep. It’s become a regular thing, something I can’t even complain about anymore because it’s become my life. My regular routine is to wake up at 2 and stay up till 3 then sleep again until 5:30. No complaining because there is no changing it. Unless of course I get that boyfriend.
Sunday morning came at 5:30. Surprise! Laine let us stay in bed until 7:00 but then she started getting rowdy at which point I popped Erik on the head and told him it was his turn to get up early. And to his credit he got up right away, no complaints or arguments. He went downstairs and forgot the baby, but he did come right back up to get her. No, I didn’t get any rest in the extra hour I was in bed, I was terrified he’d forget about her again and I just knew at any second she was going to scream out because he’d stepped on her or something. But she didn’t. Still I didn’t sleep. I did however stay in bed then whole time, it was an exercise in restraint but I made it through, I even took a shower by myself. That’s a really big deal. I went downstairs to find Laine and Erik still in pajamas with fifteen minutes to get out the door. I should have known better but I didn’t fuss, I’m getting used to it I guess. Laine and I were dressed and headed for the door while Erik was still searching the house for a pair of pants. Genius should have looked in the closet but I didn’t say anything.
At church I found it difficult to hold my head up much less keep my eyes open, the only part that grabbed and held my attention both services was Russell’s singing. If he made a CD I’d buy it. I miss the Willingham’s doing worship, but mom said I may see more of them soon, so I’ll just keep my fingers crossed for that.
I worked in the nursery for second service and by 11:30 I was nodding off in the rocking chair with the girl baby so I had to have Erik come in and play with the boy baby. Me and the girl snuggled down and got our rock on for the last half hour and by the end of church I was finally getting my energy back up. It didn’t last long though, once I was in the car I fell asleep. Erik decided to drop me off at home and take Laine out to lunch with my folks. AMAZING IDEA! The best idea he’s probably ever had. I did sleep then, for a whole three hours I slept and I didn’t even move. My leg was still half off the bed when Laine came tearing into my room to wake me up at 3:30. She’d taken her nap on Erik’s shoulder while he was shopping at Lowes. He said he had a basket in one hand and Laine in the other, and he didn’t set her into a cart because he wanted her to sleep and that by the end of the trip his arm was dead. I let him boo-hoo about it because I’d just had a nap, but after complaining about it for fifteen minutes I told him “yes, dear, I know it was probably very difficult, I’m sorry about that but I’m so happy that you let her sleep. It was a very good daddy move” but my tone said “Shut the eff up dear, I love you but I’ll punch you in the no-go hole if you say another word about how hard you had it for the last three hours” He caught the gist of it though I think because he dropped it.
Once I was fully awake and we were all enjoying eachother's company watchign TV Erik said he wanted to do a few things around the house but throughout the day Laine had become attached to him and wasn’t letting him work (GOD! I WONDER WHAT THAT’S LIKE?!) So to pay him back for taking care of me I took Laine over to my mom’s where I was finally able to get her input on the doll, we didn’t get to talk about it too much but we did get to hang out. Daddy was busy with bills and taxes so Mom and I got to hang out just the two of us and watch a movie. At one point Laine left us to find my Dad, she ended up falling asleep on him so it was really REALLY just me and mom for almost an hour. That never happens and it was GREAT.
Around 8:00 I bundled up Laine and took her home, she woke up and went back down about three times Sunday night but each time was shorter than the last so I was still mostly rested on Monday.
Work was fine, I had a couple of things to do and was glad to have it to do, and I am still waiting on that big job to come in. Just waiting… At 5:00 I left and got Laine, she and I got home and made meatloaf and waited for Daddy to get home. He got there starved and impatient for dinner, and even ate seconds when it was done. It’s been a long time since he’s asked for seconds, made me feel like maybe this loaf was a better loaf than the last loaf i made, even though I know it wasn’t. I told Laine “He likes the meatloaf; that means he likes me.” And Erik looked at me like that’s not at all what that means, and I got all hurt and he tried telling me that he likes me with or without the meatloaf and I was all “so you don’t like the meatloaf?”and he said that no, really it wasn’t his favorite but it was okay, and I was all oh, it’s okay well let me just go set it on fire because we can’t have okay food here, it’s got to be perfect then Erik said something about insane and committed and too expensive, I don’t know, whatever. But he did have seconds.
We watched TV for a while before bed adn I saw this commercial for Dexatrim Max and it says you can lose weight three times faster. Three times faster.... THREE TIMES FASTER THAN WHAT?! I'll never in my life get over how incomplete that comercial left me.
Today, I broke my streak. I had gone nine days without calling Erik. I had to call him this morning though because I’d forgotten the last two days to take diapers to the daycare and I needed him to drop it off for me. He picked up on the second ring. TWILIGHT ZONE!! I almost forgot what I was calling him about.
Tonight we are eating leftovers and I’m going to finally figure out my pattern, hopefully. That’s the plan anyway.
Monday, December 27
Christmas. Check.
Christmas is finished. I'm happy and sad. There really is no other holiday that completely takes over entire families like Christmas does. Everyone feels obligated to be nice and to visit with people you wouldn't normally visit with during the other parts of the year, and if they are anything like me, instead of reminding them why they don't visit normally it reminds them that they are a jerk for having missed out on their company for so long. I love Christmas because it makes me feel like a jerk; and for at least a few weeks after the holidays I keep those folks in mind and I call and email and may visit a time or two, but it's too bad the holiday spirit doesn't stick around after the holidays. That would rock, but then again it would just be July, not the holidays anymore, but if everyone kept the holiday spirit year round I guess we wouldn't miss the holiday time of year, because it would be all year. Get spirity people! Let's holiday the crap out of this year!
This Christmas Erik was adamant about us not getting stressed out by bouncing back and forth between the families... the families that live five miles apart, the families that understand we have other families to see and visit with and love on. Yeah, he was the only stressing about not stressing, and by the time we finally collapsed onto the last couch of the night he still couldn't relax because he was Stressy McStresserpants. I was eating my second plate of cheesecake by the time he calmed down. Next year I think I'll make out a chart or timeline or Excel spreadsheet for him. (7:00 Home, 10:00 Porters, 16:00 Rosendahls, 22:00 Home.) I love making lists and spreadsheets so that's no hard thing for me to do, though I don't know if I would be able to handle super serious Daddy with a list, Mommy's with lists are fine but give a Daddy a list and all of a sudden there are bullwhips and cattle prods and "Where are you're shoes, soldier!?" and as much as Erik is suited for that line of torture I'm really excited to see what kind of a monkey wrench a three year old will be in any plans we make for next year. Ha! never underestimate the power of the Laine.
I didnt' take near the amount of pictures this year as I did last year. I was a little busy chasing Laine and eating. Mostly I was eating, so there are a select few photographs this year, but you won't be able to tell the difference seeing as how you only get shown the best anyway. I'll know though, my December '10 folder is tiny compared to my December '09.
So to round up the holiday, here are the best of the few shots I got. I hope every one who celebrates Christmas had a merry one.
Monday, February 8
Weekend Update
This weekend was busy! 
Friday I got off work and was able to spend a little time with my person and her family, that’s like three days in a row, or something, amazing, here’s to hoping we can keep it up. I’ve noticed however that it’s following me home now, I haven’t stopped sneezing for three days either, Haha!
I stayed up late of Friday night baking the cakes for Laine party, the actual cake came out looking like maybe Laine herself made it but my cake balls came out amazingly, I did a little chocolate cherry number this time that I hear was pretty yummy. I took a bite of one but didn’t finish it, I was tired of cake by the time I was able to try it so I didn’t enjoy it much. Erik seemed to really love them though and so did my dad and he’s the one I make them for, so I win!
Saturday was a long day, I was up around 6:15 with Laine and we started out really strong, with food and a bath and some serious playtime with the huge clean living room, then Erik joined us around 8:30 or so and I went to mom’s house to work out while I still had the time, picking up some milk on my way back home. 
Once home Erik and it took turns watching Laine and cleaning the house until it was time for me and Laine to go and visit Avery for her birthday, we didn’t visit for nearly as long as we should have but we all had parties to prepare for and showers to take so we left and met up with Erik again right before he headed out to get some ice and ice cream, a
s he was pulling away with Laine my mom showed up to help me decorate right as I was getting out of the shower. Then people started showing up and I figured that would be a good time to get dressed and fix my self up, a couple people caught me halfway through my makeup application and were frightened accordingly.
I took a bazillion pictures but my camera cord is missing so I don’t know if I can get them off my camera, the USB port is all funky. (FOUND IT!!) Laine played in her cake like a champ and ended up having to get a bath before we could do presents where she made out with a whole new wardrobe and some amazing noise makers.
Jacob and Josh were holy terrors just like I like them, and Laine was totally into it too, they are the most amazing thing she’s ever seen, I love it when they get to see each other.
Sunday we made it to church early, Laines help
ed by picking out her own dress and I even wore a dress, I know right! Gasp, and heels too! Yeah, I looked amazing plus three to the max. We hung out at the house for lunch, Laine ate half of Erik’s soup for lunch too w
hich was amazingly scary, it was her first big girl meal at home, Yay Laine! We had a little company too, Laine’s Great Uncle and Aunt came by again and we got to sit and be social with just the two of them for about 30 minutes which was so great, I don’t usually get one on one time with relatives who live far away, family reunions and birthdays aren’t really conducive to persona
l conversations, so I’m glad Aunt Kelly left her purse at my house, she should do it again sometime.
Around 5:00 we headed over to the church to eat some dinner and watch the Super Bowl. Mr. Clay made some awesome chili, I had two bowls and loved every bite and no I do not feel guilty for stuffing myself. Laine even got a couple of bites. At half time Erik and I headed back home to put Laine down to sleep and finish watching the game, Geaux Saints and whatnot.
Friday I got off work and was able to spend a little time with my person and her family, that’s like three days in a row, or something, amazing, here’s to hoping we can keep it up. I’ve noticed however that it’s following me home now, I haven’t stopped sneezing for three days either, Haha!
I stayed up late of Friday night baking the cakes for Laine party, the actual cake came out looking like maybe Laine herself made it but my cake balls came out amazingly, I did a little chocolate cherry number this time that I hear was pretty yummy. I took a bite of one but didn’t finish it, I was tired of cake by the time I was able to try it so I didn’t enjoy it much. Erik seemed to really love them though and so did my dad and he’s the one I make them for, so I win!
Saturday was a long day, I was up around 6:15 with Laine and we started out really strong, with food and a bath and some serious playtime with the huge clean living room, then Erik joined us around 8:30 or so and I went to mom’s house to work out while I still had the time, picking up some milk on my way back home. 
Once home Erik and it took turns watching Laine and cleaning the house until it was time for me and Laine to go and visit Avery for her birthday, we didn’t visit for nearly as long as we should have but we all had parties to prepare for and showers to take so we left and met up with Erik again right before he headed out to get some ice and ice cream, a
s he was pulling away with Laine my mom showed up to help me decorate right as I was getting out of the shower. Then people started showing up and I figured that would be a good time to get dressed and fix my self up, a couple people caught me halfway through my makeup application and were frightened accordingly.
I took a bazillion pictures but my camera cord is missing so I don’t know if I can get them off my camera, the USB port is all funky. (FOUND IT!!) Laine played in her cake like a champ and ended up having to get a bath before we could do presents where she made out with a whole new wardrobe and some amazing noise makers.
Jacob and Josh were holy terrors just like I like them, and Laine was totally into it too, they are the most amazing thing she’s ever seen, I love it when they get to see each other.Sunday we made it to church early, Laines help
ed by picking out her own dress and I even wore a dress, I know right! Gasp, and heels too! Yeah, I looked amazing plus three to the max. We hung out at the house for lunch, Laine ate half of Erik’s soup for lunch too w
hich was amazingly scary, it was her first big girl meal at home, Yay Laine! We had a little company too, Laine’s Great Uncle and Aunt came by again and we got to sit and be social with just the two of them for about 30 minutes which was so great, I don’t usually get one on one time with relatives who live far away, family reunions and birthdays aren’t really conducive to persona
l conversations, so I’m glad Aunt Kelly left her purse at my house, she should do it again sometime.Around 5:00 we headed over to the church to eat some dinner and watch the Super Bowl. Mr. Clay made some awesome chili, I had two bowls and loved every bite and no I do not feel guilty for stuffing myself. Laine even got a couple of bites. At half time Erik and I headed back home to put Laine down to sleep and finish watching the game, Geaux Saints and whatnot.
Monday, January 25
Weekend Update
I’ve formed a new habit. I don’t go home at night until it is absolutely necessary. I go to my mom’s or one of their friends or to my in-laws; I just don’t want to be home anymore when Erik is working late. I hate that I have to miss him like I do. It’s ridiculous for me to be lonely and feel like I’m living separate from my husband when we still sleep in the same bed at night. I am lucky to see him before 10:00pm on a weekday, but I am usually in bed asleep before then and I get up and leave for work hours before he does. It’s so sad that he can go two, three and even four days without seeing his daughter. Every time I’m home now all I can think of is that he isn’t there with me. I can’t complain about it either because I know he doesn’t want to be working late either and it has to be hard on him being away from us. Even when he is home, he’s away from us, Saturday he had to work for the entire morning, we just barely got him for the afternoon. He’s been telling me a lot lately that he appreciates me taking care of Laine while he’s gone, that he appreciates how I keep his laundry done and I make sure he’s got food waiting on him at the end of the day, and you know, I’m not sure I told him that I appreciate him working so hard for us. I’ll have to stay up and tell him tonight. 
Yesterday he took me to see Avatar in IMAX 3D, it was pretty neat. I didn’t need the 3D part, there is too much going on in the movie as is to really need things popping gout at you. But we had a lot of fun, just the two of us. We haven’t had time together that hasn’t been interrupted by work calling Erik or April barking and clawing at the door or Laine crying for attention in a long time. We rent movies now and again but it isn’t the same as getting out of the house together.
We went to see Colleen and the new baby this weekend too but not for as long as we’d liked, it was such a long day on Friday that both of us just wanted to snuggle and take a deep breath together, but there are some things that are more important than sleep and that’s a new baby, we are both wanting to go back and get some more baby love really soon. We also really enjoy watching Laine interact with Josie. They get along pretty well for two dominant personalities, it’s nice to see that telepathic DNA coding that Colleen and I did on them in utero is working out. All McFee’s will be best friends with all Rosendahl's from now until forever, amen.
I got to hang out with my other baby a couple of time last week, and for the last two Sundays as well, I’m slowly but surely getting more and more great photos of Jacob and Josh. Are all boys this hard to photograph? It’s ridiculous!
Well, that’s it for now, except to say that I’ve reached my ten pound mark in weight loss, I still have forty more pounds to go, but with the first bit done it makes me feel like the rest isn’t too large of a challenge.
Yesterday he took me to see Avatar in IMAX 3D, it was pretty neat. I didn’t need the 3D part, there is too much going on in the movie as is to really need things popping gout at you. But we had a lot of fun, just the two of us. We haven’t had time together that hasn’t been interrupted by work calling Erik or April barking and clawing at the door or Laine crying for attention in a long time. We rent movies now and again but it isn’t the same as getting out of the house together.
We went to see Colleen and the new baby this weekend too but not for as long as we’d liked, it was such a long day on Friday that both of us just wanted to snuggle and take a deep breath together, but there are some things that are more important than sleep and that’s a new baby, we are both wanting to go back and get some more baby love really soon. We also really enjoy watching Laine interact with Josie. They get along pretty well for two dominant personalities, it’s nice to see that telepathic DNA coding that Colleen and I did on them in utero is working out. All McFee’s will be best friends with all Rosendahl's from now until forever, amen.
I got to hang out with my other baby a couple of time last week, and for the last two Sundays as well, I’m slowly but surely getting more and more great photos of Jacob and Josh. Are all boys this hard to photograph? It’s ridiculous!
Well, that’s it for now, except to say that I’ve reached my ten pound mark in weight loss, I still have forty more pounds to go, but with the first bit done it makes me feel like the rest isn’t too large of a challenge.
Monday, January 4
A New Year
Today I am blogging out of obligation. The last thing I want to do today is sit and type up a bunch of information that all of you already know, but for the sake of one day looking back and remembering I’m sitting here, typing it all out.This Christmas/New Year Holiday was such a wonderful experience for my whole family. Grandma came and stayed for almost a whole week though not quite long enough. I got some great photos of her with Laine that I’ve been trying to get for almost a year now, however they are on my old camera at home, so I'll have to post those some other time.
I got the week between Christmas and the New Year off work so that I could stay home with Laine, and wouldn’t you now it that when I was just about to get the best Christmas gift ever and get some serious one on one time with my kid, I got sick. Like really sick, I was completely useless for a solid two days, thank
God my mom was able to watch Laine for me; otherwise she’d have been in the medicine cabinet or something awful while I lay close to death on the couch. But instead I was able to sleep for 13 hours strait and take some amazing antibiotics and by Wednesday I was feeling 100 times better, and by Friday I was completely wonderfully healthy again. However since I hadn’t known for sure what our plans were going to be or how I was going to be feeling Erik and I made no promises as to where we’d be for New Year and so on the 1st Erik and I had to do a quick step-hop-skip-jump kind of move to get to everyone for the New Year. We spent the earlier part of the day at my mom’s house preparing for the get together she was planning for her house. Around 6:00 we blazed out of there to go home and change and get back on the road so that we could drop Laine off at 
Tricia’s and be down at James and Cassie’s by 8:00. We just barely made it in time and were supposed to be out of there by 9:00 but I got caught up in my scrapbook page so I made us late getting back on the road. WE got to my parents house close to 10:00 and stayed for an hour playing Wii with Mr. and Mrs. Schmale and mom and dad. It was so much fun; I can’t even tell you how much fun. I have NO PICTURES, that’s how much fun I was having. HA! Then as we were getting close to 11:00 we headed strait back to Tricia’s to spend our midnight with them. Laine was asleep for a little while but woke up right before we left. Midnight was fun, I got to kiss this really great guy and then he and I both got to kiss this really great girl. Holiday’s spent with family are quickly becoming my favorite.
Oh, also on the 1st, as we were helping mom bake stuff, Laine took her first steps! Just one or two and I totally missed it but I got to see her second try and I also got to catch her try again the next day. Her fourth tooth also came during the holiday. So many changes in so little time. I can’t wait to see what happens next.
Sunday, December 27
Weeked Update, Christmas Special
This week so far has been the best week ever! Laine is having her first Christmas, Erik and I are finally getting to have our first family Christmas that we've been planning and we got to spend Christmas day with both of our families! Everything happend this week like it was supposed to and there were no fights and no owies and everyone was happy and together. I really can't believe how awesome this holiday turned out to be.
As for photo's there are just so many, so I'll leaving you with a link to my Facebook page and there you will find all the photos. I've taken the time to caption each of them so hopefully you can follow along with our weekend, when you see it I hope you can forgive me for not taking the time to put it up here too.
I hope everyone's Christmas holiday was as blessed as mine!
As for photo's there are just so many, so I'll leaving you with a link to my Facebook page and there you will find all the photos. I've taken the time to caption each of them so hopefully you can follow along with our weekend, when you see it I hope you can forgive me for not taking the time to put it up here too.
I hope everyone's Christmas holiday was as blessed as mine!
Monday, November 30
Weekend Update
So, I
have a lot to catch you up on. We had a long weekend, well the weekend was the same length that it always is but I got a half a day off of work (the last half) on Wednesday and I had Thursday and Friday off too, then Saturday and Sunday of course, so that’s four and a half days of at-home-away-from-work time so, long weekend.
Wednesday I told you that I was going to go get Laine from daycare early so that the ladies there could go home early, as it turns out there was one other baby there so my good intentions were for nothing, but I got a hug from Miss Joann anyway. On my way home I was going to stop by Kroger to get the stuff I needed to make the hot rice for Thanksgiving at Erik’s uncles house but mom called and said she was at the mall, so der, I went to the mall. We ate at the food court and walked around for a while, I bought Kate and Jennifer’s Christmas presents and I got Laine a pair of shoes to wear for Christmas. After I left mom I went to Target to do a little more shopping since I was in the area and got my groceries while I was there. By the time we were done shopping Laine was getting really tired so 
I took the long way home, finally getting there around 6:00. Erik was waiting for us and decided to start a fire in the fireplace for us, so Laine was able to see fire for the first time ever. She didn’t seem too interested in it, but she did look at it every now and then, like it’s something that isn’t supposed to be there. We tried to keep her awake a little later than normal so that she would sleep in the next day but that didn’t work. 
Thursday morning we were up at 7:00, rolling around in bed for about two hours until she went back to sleep until close to 10:00. We got up and ate breakfast in the meantime and watched a little TV while having snuggle time on the couch before the baby woke up again. Erik played with Laine around the living room while I ironed the clothes we were wearing out that day and made the rice for dinner. We made it to Uncle 
Bill’s close to 2:30 and got to visit with a bunch of family that I haven’t seen since I was pregnant. It’s always great to see peoples reaction to how big Laine has gotten, it’s also amazing to see how bad they feel when they realize how long it’s been since they visited. HA! (I know that’s mean.) After Bill’s we headed over to Mom and Dad’s house because Grandma was in town, so we were able to let Laine see her for a few hours before calling it a night.
Friday we woke up early again and went to go visit Grandma again at Mom and Dad’s, once we got there we get a call from Darren and Audrey saying that they were out shopping but would be stopping for lunch and asked if we wanted to join them. Again, der. It was a wonderful lunch that Laine slept through and then we were able to get a picture of Grandma with the boys and Laine. A good picture too, with everyone facing forward and not making silly faces. It’s amazing and needs to be framed. After lunch Dad took Grandma over to my cousin Michelle’s house to visit while 
Laine and I went with Momma to go and see Poppy for a while. We had a good visit and he was looking really well. He’s lost a lot of weight but in a good way, his hair was recently trimmed and combed nicely, his shirt looked pressed and he was wearing real shoes, not slippers. Its looks like this new nursing home is treating him well. I tried to get a good photo of them but Laine was too squirrelly to sit still for a photo.
After visiting for about an hour Mom and I headed over to Target to do a little Black Friday shopping. It really wasn’t that bad. It could be because we got there around 2:00 and missed the morning rush, but I didn’t’ have any problems finding the toys and video games I was looking for so I guess we either got lucky or this Target was just well stocked. I left there and headed back home close to 5:00 and found Erik and
his old friend hanging out and drinking a few beers so I decided that would be a good time to dunk my head in a vat of chemicals, but had to settle for dying my hair. Since my hair is so thick I had to use two boxes and it probably would have been a lot easier if I did have a vat. (What is a vat?) It took me a little longer than I though to do the dying but I was still ready and out the door in under an hour so we weren’t too late for dinner at Patricia’s house at 6:00. 
Everyone liked my hair so I felt it was okay that I was a tad bit late. Patricia was saying how she feels bad that she doesn’t get to see Laine that often so we were like… weeellll, there is a movie we want to see… So Erik and I got to go on a date, kinda. Erik’s friend came too. But he bought me popcorn and a root beer so I didn’t complain, much.
Once we got back to Patricia’s house we were told that Laine was angry when we left, that for an hour she kept looking towards the front door and crying. They told us she didn’t seem sad at all, just angry. We got a good laugh out of that and decided we won’t make a big deal out of saying bye-bye when we leave her again. We got her home and into bed pretty easily and she slept for most of the night. Our Saturday morning was a lot like our Thursday morning so instead of retyping it I’ll just let you reread it.
Go ahead I’ll wait… Then we decided to go to Kohl’s to do a little shopping but on the way out we stopped by Mom and Dad’s again to see Grandma and get a cup of coffee. Mom told me that Michelle’s twins were having a birthday party (yeah, whatever right? I didn’t want to go anyway, humph!) but Mom told me that my cousin Elizabeth and her parents were wanting to come by for a visit after the party, so I had major heart palpitations for a little while and then Mom offered to watch Laine and take her to the party while Erik and I did our shopping and cleaned the house, It was so nice to have a solid couple of hours to do some serious cleaning for once, we got the whole house deep down clean, except for our room, by the time we got there we threw our hands up in the air, said we quit and sat down and had some coffee while waiting on everyone to get there. When they did I offered coffee to everyone else but only Grandma took me up on it, which I was happy for since that left more for me. We did a quick once over of the house, I love people seeing my house for the first time, it reminds me how lucky we are for having such a nice house. They didn’t stay very long to visit since they had a ways left to drive to get home, but I wouldn’t mind having that bunch of folks over again, I like them. 
On Sunday Laine was able to wear her new dress that Grandma bought for her, It’s probably the most adorable outfit ever, and it’s a really simple pattern, so since I have a sewing machine now I’m going to try to make one like it, see if I can’t make cute things too. Lunch after church was NOT at Melly’s, thank God, but at a different Mexican restaurant, so we got our fix, just somewhere else this time. I think a two week break will be just enough for me and I’ll be ready to go back next Sunday. Once we g
ot home Laine crashed for about an hour and a half and when she got up we played for a few hours but then I asked Erik to take care of Laine for me while I watched a little TV to finish the show I had downloaded and while my back was turned that turd let Laine take her first steps! So I ran to get the video camera and was able to film just a little bit before she got too tired to do anymore, I'm so excited that I could catch what I did. Things like this only happen once and you got to be quick! Next time she’ll be doing it without holding onto Erik’s fingers and I can only pray I don’t miss it. After the excitement died down and all was back to normal I took Laine to go and visit with my person since she was home from her trip and I missed being in her company. I didn’t stay long at her house, I hadn’t realized how tired I was until I sat on her super comfy couch and got all droopy eyed. After I left her house I went and raided Mom and Dad’s refrigerator and stole their sweet potatoes and a pumpkin pie that I think might have been our to begin with but I’m not sure. I got home and ate a huge plate of sweet
potatoes and Erik got Laine ready for bed, she had been manic for about three hours before I left the house and for the first time I think ever, she did not fall asleep in the car. She went right back to being all over the place when I got home and didn’t’ stop for almost 45 minutes, then out of the blue she started crying hysterically and rubbing her eyes a lot so I took her upstairs to rock her for a bit and before I even sat down she was snoring in my ear, so I laid her down in her bed and went to tell Erik goodnight too. It was only 6:30 but I knew that if she was going out that early that I’d be getting up super early with her, so I figured I’d be tricksy and get a few good hours in too. The next thin I knew it was 6:30 in the morning and she was still asleep. I got ready for work and was going to wake her up and take her to Mom’s house but it was a little early and I though I’d let mom sleep in al little if she could.
That was our weekend. Long. Good.
have a lot to catch you up on. We had a long weekend, well the weekend was the same length that it always is but I got a half a day off of work (the last half) on Wednesday and I had Thursday and Friday off too, then Saturday and Sunday of course, so that’s four and a half days of at-home-away-from-work time so, long weekend.
Wednesday I told you that I was going to go get Laine from daycare early so that the ladies there could go home early, as it turns out there was one other baby there so my good intentions were for nothing, but I got a hug from Miss Joann anyway. On my way home I was going to stop by Kroger to get the stuff I needed to make the hot rice for Thanksgiving at Erik’s uncles house but mom called and said she was at the mall, so der, I went to the mall. We ate at the food court and walked around for a while, I bought Kate and Jennifer’s Christmas presents and I got Laine a pair of shoes to wear for Christmas. After I left mom I went to Target to do a little more shopping since I was in the area and got my groceries while I was there. By the time we were done shopping Laine was getting really tired so 
I took the long way home, finally getting there around 6:00. Erik was waiting for us and decided to start a fire in the fireplace for us, so Laine was able to see fire for the first time ever. She didn’t seem too interested in it, but she did look at it every now and then, like it’s something that isn’t supposed to be there. We tried to keep her awake a little later than normal so that she would sleep in the next day but that didn’t work. 
Thursday morning we were up at 7:00, rolling around in bed for about two hours until she went back to sleep until close to 10:00. We got up and ate breakfast in the meantime and watched a little TV while having snuggle time on the couch before the baby woke up again. Erik played with Laine around the living room while I ironed the clothes we were wearing out that day and made the rice for dinner. We made it to Uncle 
Bill’s close to 2:30 and got to visit with a bunch of family that I haven’t seen since I was pregnant. It’s always great to see peoples reaction to how big Laine has gotten, it’s also amazing to see how bad they feel when they realize how long it’s been since they visited. HA! (I know that’s mean.) After Bill’s we headed over to Mom and Dad’s house because Grandma was in town, so we were able to let Laine see her for a few hours before calling it a night.
Friday we woke up early again and went to go visit Grandma again at Mom and Dad’s, once we got there we get a call from Darren and Audrey saying that they were out shopping but would be stopping for lunch and asked if we wanted to join them. Again, der. It was a wonderful lunch that Laine slept through and then we were able to get a picture of Grandma with the boys and Laine. A good picture too, with everyone facing forward and not making silly faces. It’s amazing and needs to be framed. After lunch Dad took Grandma over to my cousin Michelle’s house to visit while 
Laine and I went with Momma to go and see Poppy for a while. We had a good visit and he was looking really well. He’s lost a lot of weight but in a good way, his hair was recently trimmed and combed nicely, his shirt looked pressed and he was wearing real shoes, not slippers. Its looks like this new nursing home is treating him well. I tried to get a good photo of them but Laine was too squirrelly to sit still for a photo.After visiting for about an hour Mom and I headed over to Target to do a little Black Friday shopping. It really wasn’t that bad. It could be because we got there around 2:00 and missed the morning rush, but I didn’t’ have any problems finding the toys and video games I was looking for so I guess we either got lucky or this Target was just well stocked. I left there and headed back home close to 5:00 and found Erik and
his old friend hanging out and drinking a few beers so I decided that would be a good time to dunk my head in a vat of chemicals, but had to settle for dying my hair. Since my hair is so thick I had to use two boxes and it probably would have been a lot easier if I did have a vat. (What is a vat?) It took me a little longer than I though to do the dying but I was still ready and out the door in under an hour so we weren’t too late for dinner at Patricia’s house at 6:00. 
Everyone liked my hair so I felt it was okay that I was a tad bit late. Patricia was saying how she feels bad that she doesn’t get to see Laine that often so we were like… weeellll, there is a movie we want to see… So Erik and I got to go on a date, kinda. Erik’s friend came too. But he bought me popcorn and a root beer so I didn’t complain, much.Once we got back to Patricia’s house we were told that Laine was angry when we left, that for an hour she kept looking towards the front door and crying. They told us she didn’t seem sad at all, just angry. We got a good laugh out of that and decided we won’t make a big deal out of saying bye-bye when we leave her again. We got her home and into bed pretty easily and she slept for most of the night. Our Saturday morning was a lot like our Thursday morning so instead of retyping it I’ll just let you reread it.
Go ahead I’ll wait… Then we decided to go to Kohl’s to do a little shopping but on the way out we stopped by Mom and Dad’s again to see Grandma and get a cup of coffee. Mom told me that Michelle’s twins were having a birthday party (yeah, whatever right? I didn’t want to go anyway, humph!) but Mom told me that my cousin Elizabeth and her parents were wanting to come by for a visit after the party, so I had major heart palpitations for a little while and then Mom offered to watch Laine and take her to the party while Erik and I did our shopping and cleaned the house, It was so nice to have a solid couple of hours to do some serious cleaning for once, we got the whole house deep down clean, except for our room, by the time we got there we threw our hands up in the air, said we quit and sat down and had some coffee while waiting on everyone to get there. When they did I offered coffee to everyone else but only Grandma took me up on it, which I was happy for since that left more for me. We did a quick once over of the house, I love people seeing my house for the first time, it reminds me how lucky we are for having such a nice house. They didn’t stay very long to visit since they had a ways left to drive to get home, but I wouldn’t mind having that bunch of folks over again, I like them. 
On Sunday Laine was able to wear her new dress that Grandma bought for her, It’s probably the most adorable outfit ever, and it’s a really simple pattern, so since I have a sewing machine now I’m going to try to make one like it, see if I can’t make cute things too. Lunch after church was NOT at Melly’s, thank God, but at a different Mexican restaurant, so we got our fix, just somewhere else this time. I think a two week break will be just enough for me and I’ll be ready to go back next Sunday. Once we g
ot home Laine crashed for about an hour and a half and when she got up we played for a few hours but then I asked Erik to take care of Laine for me while I watched a little TV to finish the show I had downloaded and while my back was turned that turd let Laine take her first steps! So I ran to get the video camera and was able to film just a little bit before she got too tired to do anymore, I'm so excited that I could catch what I did. Things like this only happen once and you got to be quick! Next time she’ll be doing it without holding onto Erik’s fingers and I can only pray I don’t miss it. After the excitement died down and all was back to normal I took Laine to go and visit with my person since she was home from her trip and I missed being in her company. I didn’t stay long at her house, I hadn’t realized how tired I was until I sat on her super comfy couch and got all droopy eyed. After I left her house I went and raided Mom and Dad’s refrigerator and stole their sweet potatoes and a pumpkin pie that I think might have been our to begin with but I’m not sure. I got home and ate a huge plate of sweet
potatoes and Erik got Laine ready for bed, she had been manic for about three hours before I left the house and for the first time I think ever, she did not fall asleep in the car. She went right back to being all over the place when I got home and didn’t’ stop for almost 45 minutes, then out of the blue she started crying hysterically and rubbing her eyes a lot so I took her upstairs to rock her for a bit and before I even sat down she was snoring in my ear, so I laid her down in her bed and went to tell Erik goodnight too. It was only 6:30 but I knew that if she was going out that early that I’d be getting up super early with her, so I figured I’d be tricksy and get a few good hours in too. The next thin I knew it was 6:30 in the morning and she was still asleep. I got ready for work and was going to wake her up and take her to Mom’s house but it was a little early and I though I’d let mom sleep in al little if she could.That was our weekend. Long. Good.
This is what parents go through to get a nice picture of their kids.
