Not Cool

I am not okay with change. I try to be, I try to be flexable and understanding when things need to be updated or switched around but really I’m not okay with it. It buggs me, down to my very core I am bothered by things that need to be changed. It makes me laugh a little because I remember making fun of my dad, how he’d always buy the same style of shoes and he’d always order the same dish at every restaurant but now I’m that person. I like a certain kind of flip flop, the generic Target ones, black. I’m on my third pair. I like my jeans, Silver brand from Dillard’s when I can afford to buy them and the Target brand that are basically Silver knockoffs when I can’t. I like my Mossimo tank tops and my Folgers coffee and my Victoria’s Secret body spray and my CVS Tylenol and I really don’t see a problem with never changing from what I like. Now Erik came to my office yesterday and set up my new computer and updated EVERY SINGLE PROGRAM ON MY COMPUTER. I’ve been putting off updating to Windows 7 for some time, well, since it came out. Now I’m updated and I have to completely relearn how to use Microsoft Word and my EJE program. Everything is different and confusing and it’s like I need to start completely over in my job. Three years I have been working here, my office is just the way I like it things are set up a particular way, my desktop icons are in alphabetical order and I don’t care what anyone has to say about that, I’m happy with the way I run things in my corner of the world. But now it’s all messed up and different. I feel like I should look outside and find an orange sky and blue grass. It’s all wrong. And I don’t like it.